Jesus drove a Honda but didn’t talk about it, “For I did not speak of my own accord” -John 12:49
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Five
I’m done saying hello and goodbye. It doesn’t matter.
As I hear the stream of water emerse from the faucet in my bathtub, I long for and yet dread the ten minutes (minimum) I will spend in that shower. Nothing feels right when I’m at this house.
The simple smoke that flows into my mouth from the pipe should ease everything. Take another hit. Breath in. Breath out. Repeat.
As I look outside and see the branches on my orange tree barely blow in the light wind, with my window opened four inches at most, I ask myself, WHY AM I FUCKING FREEZING?
Four
Hello,
Sometimes my happiness just overpowers everything and I can’t function without this giant smile. I’m glad he loves this smile. Everything is finally falling into place, we are going to be looking for an apartment soon. February 1st will hopefully be our moving day in. I’ve never been so sure about anything or anyone in my life. Everyday I wake up but I still feel like I am in this wonderful never-ending dream. I found what I didn’t even know I was really looking for. I am so in love and I feel like things are just falling into place all over the place. Will go into detail in the future. Time to indulge.
Goodbye.
Three
Hello,
What a roller coaster of events since my last “post”. There are things not worth mentioning I suppose. Things worth mentioning include work situation and family.
I finished up my last event at Bear Creek on Sunday. It was really surreal driving home knowing I have nearly absolute freedom for the next couple of months. Since I do need an income of sorts to support my drinking and shopping addiction I got a job at this little place by my house. Speaking of addiction I went two weeks without a single drag of a cigarette. Now I will just smoke on occasion (more than likely when I am drinking) and when I think about the fact that my dad is moving. His girlfriend called me and told me and my dad still has yet to tell me.
My friend Ryan got a job at Texas Roadhouse and we are going out for a free meal since they are still training cooks there. Then it’s off to see my boyfriend in Orlando/St.Cloud. I am so very excited.
Also, decided I needed a fresh start and cut off my bangs.
Goodbye.
“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” — Steve Jobs
Two
Hello,
I completely wasted my day yesterday by getting wasted. Went to World of Beer fairly early in the afternoon. By 6:45 p.m. I was convinced it was morning. I got lots of much needed sleep.
Today should be decent. Probably will not drink but indulge in other ways. Plan on going to yoga later in the afternoon. Also, should probably start packing for Bear Creek.
Goodbye.
One
Hello,
I have had Bon Iver’s- Blood Bank stuck in my head all morning.
On day 6 of not smoking cigarettes. Enjoying not having a Facebook and being in touch with reality again. The air outside has drastically gotten more and more crisp. I love this time of year. Rumor has it that Samuel Adam’s Winter Lager is out again.
I have a cold that won’t seem to quit, time for a cup of tea to ease my throat.
Goodbye.
